Controlling the world around me is the only way I feel safe. Childhood abuse has left me scarred inside and out. But control makes me feel strong.
Unfortunately, I can’t control everything I want--including my body's panic response to touch. It’s hard to share affection with my brothers, much less anyone else. I’ve all but given up on a romantic relationship.
My only intimacy is with a camboy who can give me what I need without triggering my trauma. Shiloh is beautiful, warm, and sensitive. We're not just camboy and client; we're friends. It’s not everything I crave, but it’s more than I’ve ever had.
Then I find out he’s in trouble—and I can’t stand by and watch him get hurt. I bring him home, pushing my boundaries to protect him. But once he’s in my safe space, so close and inviting, my temptation wars with preservation.
Can I overcome my touch-aversion for a chance at real love—or will I just hurt us both?
Control Freak is Book 3 of Foster Bro Code, about a group of foster brothers who have made a pact to have each other's backs as they heal and find their way to love. TW for references to childhood abuse, lingering trauma and anxiety, and physical assault/violence on page.
Copy received via Neon Rainbow Reviews for an honest review
Oh, how I like these foster brothers and delving into their lives.
I somehow missed book 2, but that is fine, it did not affect my enjoyment of this book 3 at all.
And this is the book I have been waiting for. I have wanted to know more about Holden right from the start.
I liked that it deals with a different type of effect of past trauma. I have never read a book where the main character has an aversion to touch. And it made me think about how easily I take it for granted that I can hug my loved ones, that a simple touch on the arm does not send me into a spiral. So well done on that, DJ Jamison.
And the fact that even when he found the person he will want forever, his touch phobia does not just *sprinkles fairy dust* go away. We get the whole big bad with it.
Shiloh, well, he is just everything to love. His own issues follow him, and it was adorable and heartwarming how he puts Holden first, every single time (even if it does inadvertantly hurt them both).
Seeing the brothers circle the wagons to protect those they love is probably my favourite thing about this book and the series.
I need more.
